Wednesday, April 28, 2021

What is left.

Boots


 This is 8 days overdue.  I couldn't figure out how to add any pictures. 


Today would have been my mom's 88th birthday.  She made it to her 87th but no further. For her birthday last year, I called her and played a few of her favorite songs on the piano. She always wanted to listen to me play the piano at church so playing for her over the phone was a lame compromise. My piano at home is very out of tune and for some reason, I don't play as smoothly at home as I used to at church.  Luckily, it turned out that her telephone concert was good not only for a listen, but for a couple laughs too!  

For her birthday this year, I would have been able to spend time with her. Because of the pandemic, that wasn't possible last year. I believe though, that she is having an amazing birthday this year having been reunited with my dad, my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and a large majority of her friends. 

How do I feel today? A little melancholy I suppose. I really miss her - I really miss both my parents. But I'm tired of crying. I feel like I'm crying about everything these days.  Everything just hurts SO much!  I'm tired of looking back over my life - I'm ready to look ahead but I'm not sure what for.  I'm so tired of living my life in front of a computer screen. 

Boots the cat - is what I have left of my parents (aside from my brothers, of course).  I can still remember when my dad brought home this scrawny little kitten soooooo many years ago.  Someone had dumped it at my dad's office, the day after Thanksgiving. I think that if my dad hadn't found Boots, she surely would have died.  Boots lived a very nice, very long, and very comfortable life with my parents.  She had the option of hanging out in their backyard watching the birds from the deck or staying in the house and sleeping anywhere she liked. Boots is now living with my daughter and her 2 kids, 2 dogs, and 2cats. Boots spends her days inside sleeping where ever she wants to sleep, her favorite place being on my daughter's lap.  Boots has probably had more baths in the past few months than she has ever had in her previous 101 years!  Boots also sports a very feminine cat collar!

So as life happens, the family is dwindling. It is sad to see people go but that is what happens and no amount of crying or worrying is going to change it. I think it is important for me to keep that in mind and to enjoy every single day. 

Added 4/28: I'm so glad that a few years ago, I decided that it was alright to feel sad and that I didn't always need to be happy.  Today is a better day!  

Tuesday, April 6, 2021

Spring.



I've always said that autumn is my favorite time of year. It truly is but there is something to be said about spring. After being in the house for over a year, the sounds of spring are so welcomed! The chirps of peepers, the neighbor kids screaming and laughing as they ride their bikes, the donkey braying in such a way that it sounds like a teenaged boy whose voice is changing! I love the chill in the air and how, when I have the windows wide open, the wind is just cool enough to still need a sweatshirt.

 This past weekend was one of the best weekends of my life and to be honest, I feel a little let down that it is over. We had a houseful and it was wonderful! Not once did I worry about my dumpy little home because this weekend, it was a castle. There was laughter, games, good food, and just plain happiness. It doesn't get much better than that. 

Busy summer

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