It has been a year since my dad left this earth. To say it has been difficult would be an understatement. To lose such a powerful force in my life.........well, it has been a hard year. I'm still not better. I still can't look at pictures, I still can't really think of him, I still can't cry. I still have to hold my memories an arm's length away because I think if I get too close, they'll blow me away. But I do think of him constantly. I feel him around me always. I can't scratch an animal without thinking of my dad. How much he loved dogs and cats and horses. Just like my dad, my tendency with the camera is to take pictures of trees and flowers and plants. I hear my dad in the whisper of the wind through the leaves of the trees. I feel him around me anytime I'm out in the woods, which is often.
Because of him, I think I appreciate things a little more. I realize that people who you love won't always be with you. That you better have fun while you can. That you better reach for your dreams while you are still able.
Today I am going to take some time off of work. Rumor has it, that my dad always felt it was important to make time for a nap. He was always telling me to take it easy, get more sleep. So today, I am going to go visit the horses with apples for all and then go home, sit under the lilac tree, listen to the wind whistling though the trees and take a nap. And think of dad.
It has been a year since my dad left this earth. To say it has been difficult would be an understatement. To lose such a powerful force in my life.........well, it has been a hard year. I'm still not better. I still can't look at pictures, I still can't really think of him, I still can't cry. I still have to hold my memories an arm's length away because I think if I get too close, they'll blow me away. But I do think of him constantly. I feel him around me always. I can't scratch an animal without thinking of my dad. How much he loved dogs and cats and horses. Just like my dad, my tendency with the camera is to take pictures of trees and flowers and plants. I hear my dad in the whisper of the wind through the leaves of the trees. I feel him around me anytime I'm out in the woods, which is often. 
Today I am going to take some time off of work. Rumor has it, that my dad always felt it was important to make time for a nap. He was always telling me to take it easy, get more sleep. So today, I am going to go visit the horses with apples for all and then go home, sit under the lilac tree, listen to the wind whistling though the trees and take a nap. And think of dad. 
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